Friday, April 13, 2012

More Than True

Fairy tales, like all stories, are both real and unreal. They have a tenuous, airy relationship with fact, orbiting the most truthful idea as planets orbit the sun. They fixate on this one inalienable truth, common to all tales, and from this fundamental truth they build a web of looser and looser ones until the facts have all but floated away, gossamer threads of actuality lost to the draw of the story. The truth is there in the beginning:

Once upon a time…

This is not a fairy tale. But it has that same grain of truth, that same beginning that all stories have.

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Once upon a time, there lived a beautiful girl. She had hair as black as night, lips as red as the reddest rose, and skin as white as snow. She was born with death and raised in hardship by her father and his six brothers. Later, they will be written as dwarves. Later, she will be a princess. But for now, she is simply Gwyn, and she is alone.

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She runs away from her home the night her father brings home the butcher’s son and tells her to greet her future husband. She steals away in the night with her uncle’s hunting knife, a loaf of bread, and a cloak for the cold. She is fourteen the day after she leaves, but she hardly pauses to pay the thought mind. There is work to be done.

Her uncles had raised her like a boy—she could swim as quickly as a fish and hunt alongside the fiercest hawk. But her grandmother had raised her as well, had taught her to tell the time from the sun in the sky, to decipher words on a page into words on the tongue, how to sew fabric and cook a meal. If she were a boy, she would have been home the second day. But she is more than a boy.

The first time she kills is of necessity. The man tries to take what she has no intention of giving, and in the end, as she watches the knife slide back out of his chest, she is confident in her choice. When she sees his picture in a tavern the next afternoon with the promise of a handsome reward for his return dead or alive, she considers it a boon. She returns to where she hid the body and saws at his neck until his head falls free. She nearly loses her nerve, but reminds herself that she has done the same to pigs for years. She drops the head on the bar and demands her coin, and she gets it.

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It gets easier as time goes on, and her reputation begins to spread. The last two criminals she killed had been whispering about her in the moments before she came up behind them. They say she’s not human, said one. They say her skin is like snow, says the other. When she brings their heads in for her reward, she asks the barman, who laughs at her. They all call you Snow White, he says, because your skin is as white as the snow and your feet fall as softly.

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The Queen has asked for the best hunters in the land, and she is here. The men laugh and the women sneer when they see her, her skirts messed from the forest, her hair a dull black, her pale skin smudged with soot and earth. She lodges a knife through the heart of the target and lets the steel of her blade quiet their murmurs. When the Queen steps forward, she smiles at her, asks her name. Gwyn, she says. She kneels at the ground at the Queen’s dainty feet and feels the weight of the hand on her shoulder. I charge you to accept my quest—to go forward and spill the life blood of the once-Prince of this realm. I charge you in this quest to hunt him to the ground and make him pay attempts upon my life and the power of the kingdom. I charge you in this quest to protect your land and your Queen. Thrice I charge you and done, your bounty paid on mission’s end.

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She readies herself that night. She wears the hunter’s garb she had fashioned for herself, a thick cloak to keep away the cold, and a leather belt at her waist to hold her sword and daggers. She rises at dawn and slips away from the castle, her hair bound back in a braid to her thigh, her face newly cleaned, her swords sharpened and her pack of supplies hanging by her side.

She follows his trail through the forests and past the villages, skirting around the fires and the blades of taverns. She sees the twists of trees and the fall of leaves and understands that this is not how it should be, that he has passed before her here, and she finds his hidden footsteps on the ground. She hunts after him, through shadow and through heat, moving from blistering noon to frigid night. She watches the land pass by under her feet, and she sees what lies before them both: that wretched kingdom to the North, cold and dead and desolate, a land blighted by curse where no bird flies and no grass grows. He is easier to track here, out on the plains, and she sees him in the distance, a figure draped in crimson on a shining white horse. She lurks in the treeline and waits for him to move on enough before she plunges down the slope and follows, still, relentless.

She follows him across the barren waste, stopping at night and taking refuge in outlying abandoned huts, not daring to light a fire for fear he would smell it and search her out. The sun is a muted light when it rises, the sky a washed out blue. Colors fade here, stretch out and warp like the land. It is unnatural. Still she shadows him, watching as the spires of a castle rise on the horizon. The sun sets and the stars glow, dim and distant. As they grow closer to the castle, she sees that briars have burst out of the stone, encircling the building, but he weaves through them as the night grows darker. She follows, ever-careful. The courtyards are empty, she thinks at first, but then she sees them: bodies, human bodies, and the bile rises in her throat before she sees their chests rise and fall in the even, easy rhythm of sleep. Dust has gathered on their skin and their clothes, and the prince pays them no mind, prodding them with his feet when they obstruct his path.

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He finds his way to the foot of the tallest tower and strikes a fire. He lights a torch and slides in through the broken wooden door, clearly accustomed to the ruin and decay, familiar in this environment. She follows him in, and then up, and up further, climbing a seemingly eternal winding stair. She pauses in the shadows behind him, the dark that falls in the wake of the curving stair, and waits carefully, matches her pace to his. Her feet fall lightly on the stairs, petals falling on the stone as together they wind higher and higher. She feels the strain in her thighs, her stomach, corded muscles tightening and straining, and she fights to keep her breathing even, to match his.

Finally, he comes to a halt. There is a bump, a mumbled curse, and then the groaning of door hinges. It slams as it hits the wall. The torch makes a hollow, rattling noise as it falls to the ground, the orange light fading away. Dim sunlight filters into the stairwell, the pale white light just visible from where she stands in the darkness. Then nothing—

There. A rustling, first quiet and then more pronounced. He is disrobing. She creeps forward, back pressed against the uneven stone wall, until she stands in the mouth of the door, until she can see him. He is naked, his back to her, a long, scarless expanse of skin. Before him—before him lies a beautiful woman, sleeping on the bed. She frowns, moves back more firmly against the wall, watching. He takes no care not to wake her, peels the blanket away and casts it on the floor. She hears more shuffling, sees the muscles shifting under his skin, and then the airy blue fabric of a dress is cast aside. She sees him take two pale legs in his hands, lifting them up and spreading them wide as he kneels between them on the bed, facing away from her, making ready to take the woman as his own.

She moves, then, quick as a snake in the tall grass, until she is pressed up against his back as closely as the knife is pressed against his throat. He tries to fight; his elbow moves to jab into her side, his legs try to force him away from the bed. She grabs the skin under his bicep between her nails and she twists until the blood flows. He stills and quiets with a whimper. The sleeping woman remains still.

Who is she to you? she asks.

No one, he answers. Just a girl, just here, I thought

Fool, she says, and slits his throat.

She lets his body fall gracelessly to the floor, stoops down and uses his tunic to wipe her knife clean. She stands and inspects the woman more closely. The linens around her are covered with dust (where the princeling has not disturbed them), and her hair is full of it, but her face has no lines, her hair no silver. She reaches down and covers her with a blanket to preserve her modesty, and then she sees it: a small swell of old, rusted blood on the tip of a slender finger. She lifts it up, inspects it, and finds a splinter of golden flax dug deep into the flesh. She tries to pull it out with her fingers and fails, so she lifts the hand to her mouth and sucks away the blood, pulls out the flax.

It is as though the world around her takes a breath, alive when before it had been dead. The air in the room moves, the clouds thin, and a bird chirrups, sweet in the new electric air. Beneath her, the woman gasps; the fingers curl about hers.

The woman smiles like a sunrise, and as though pulled by her, the sun lifts itself from the horizon. It is the proper sun, hot and golden, the sky a myriad of hues—lit blue and purple and pale white at the edges. As Gywn watches, the ground begins to bloom. Trees unfurl in riotous blossoms, and a bird swoops by the window, chirruping as it slices through the air. She turns to look at the woman, amazed. Are you an enchantress? she asks.

No, she replies. I am a princess.

Her name is Phoebe, and she walks with Gwyn through the castle, trailing her hands over the stone, brushing her fingertips against the pale cold skin of the people they find. She watches with amazement as life settles over their faces again, just as the dawn had stolen over the sky, and she looks at Phoebe in awe, but says nothing.

--

When the court is restored, the King takes his place. He addresses Gwyn, thanks her for saving his daughter and his kingdom. He asks for his brother, and Gwyn can only tell him that the kingdom his brother once ruled is now ruled by a man named Adam, who was once under and enchantment and had now been freed.

The King’s face grows long with sadness.

When I ruled, Adam was the youngest of my brother’s grandsons. That so much time has passed—He looks at Gwyn. Will you accept my charge to visit my grand-nephew and bear him news of my return? I offer you a rich reward for this and for your protection of my daughter.

I accept, she says, and she thinks of riding free in the forest, of gazing on the ocean from the mountains on the coast. She leaves the next day, thundering over turf on a massive horse, her braid whispering down her back and to the horse’s flank.

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King Adam is a massive man, all muscle and brawn. She realizes later the cunning and guile that lurk behind the muscles, between the tendons, inside the bones, insidious and dangerous. For now, he smiles, benign, introduces her to his Queen, Dalia.

She is taller than Gwyn, lissome like the branches of a willow tree. Her hair falls in honeyed waves down her back, and her eyes shine greener than freshly-dewed grass in the morning. She steals the breath from Gwyn’s lungs before she even speaks. She is the most beautiful woman Gwyn has ever seen. She uses soft words, rounded at the edges with a lilting accent, spoken with a smile and a gentle touch to the arm or shoulder. She shows Gwyn to her room, and then to the dining hall, and, later, after the King has gone in with his advisors, she gives Gwyn a secret smile and pulls her away to show her a room full of books upon books.

I spend my time here, she says.

And your husband? Gwyn asks. Dalia’s eyes slant sharply away, and Gwyn can see a shadow of fear flickering across her face—a warning, the same warning she can read in the dark bruised circles on her wrists, in the purple blossom across her neck half-hidden by powder.

He spends his time as he pleases, she answers at last, and Gwyn is not satisfied.

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Gwyn lingers at the castle longer than she means to, watching winter wax and wane, watching spring’s flush return to the earth. She stays for Dalia. She walks with her in the gardens and sits with her in the library, and she watches in silence as the King lurks about the corners, snatching her away when she least expects it.

She comes back with marks, with bruises, with welts from rope. She covers them up as best she can, and when she fails at that she looks at Gwyn with eyes so full of wounded pride that something wells up in her soul and seals her mouth closed. Instead she paints lotion onto that sweetly tanned skin with her fingers, careful, tender, always gentle to fix what the beast had broken. Sometimes Dalia will tell her stories, how Adam was before he transformed. She says that he used to be a beastly creature, with a wolf’s snout and a bear’s claws and the teeth of a tiger, but he coaxed her in with soft words and gentle hands. She fell in love with him that way, almost against her will.

It was her love that saved him, she says one night, her hands tangling in Gwyn’s braid as she unties it, strand by strand. He had told her—the spell would last until he could find a maiden to love him as he appeared. And her love had cast away the exterior demon and summoned forth the one inside, his true personality hidden away again beneath a handsome face. Dalia leans down from the bed, curling in on herself, her face pressed into Gwyn’s hair, and Gwyn feels her shaking with sobs, hot tears splashing against her neck, and she cannot stop herself. She pulls away and turns on her knees, pressing her face to Dalia’s, letting their noses slide together, moving until their breaths mingle like lovers between their lips. Let my love save you, she says.

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They flee in the middle of the night. Dalia takes nothing but a few books and a cloak, and Gwyn takes the knives and the largest horse in the stable. Dalia sits in the saddle first, and Gwyn swings up after her, pressing against her back, smoothing gentle, fluttering kisses into her skin, chasing away the fears and the scars. They thunder onward, through the forest in the moonlight, their fingers twined together on the bridle as they ride.

At dawn, they hear a distant trumpet from behind. The beast has awoken and found his beauty gone. Dalia shudders. Gwyn whispers reassurances to her and sinks in her heels, heading away from the rising sun, racing the light as it shoots across the sky. They turn south, and they head for the Queen who can protect them, who owes Gwyn a debt.

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They reach the Queen’s castle at dawn the next day, Dalia nearly asleep in the saddle. Gwyn pulls her from the horse and into the courtyard, lingering in the deepest shadows and waiting until the guards pass by to slip into the chamber beside the Hall. She tells Dalia to wait, pressing her into an alcove, and she creeps on nimble feet around the passages, up the stairs, until she crosses a maid. She persuades her that she bears an urgent message for the Queen, and obtains directions to her chambers.

The Queen rises when she enters, but looks unsurprised. Gwyn explains everything. She tells of the Prince’s attempted rape and his quick demise. She tells of the sleeping beauty that she found before her, the flax, and the breaking of the hundred years’ curse that had lain over the kingdom like a cloud of darkness. She speaks of the journey to the shore, the castle of King Adam, and watches the Queen’s face darken. He was a man? she asks. He found love?

He tricked his wife, Gwyn says. He hurt her. I took her.

So you seek my help to escape him, the Queen says. You have my protection.

So readily?

She smiles, then, a cold smile that reminds Gwyn of how much power the Queen wielded even before she was queen. He was a man when I went to him, she says. He was a beast when I left him. I saw his soul the day he struck my face, and I cursed him to appear as his soul was until he found one who could love him as a monster. I suppose his cunning can overcome even that. But where is the poor child?

Gwyn explains, and the Queen summons her to them. When she stands before them, Gwyn feels blind for not seeing it before—the curve of their noses, the color of their eyes, the fall of their hair. Mother and daughter fall into each other, Dalia’s body shaking with sobs, the Queen gently carding through her hair as her cries calm to hiccups. She turns and opens her arms to Gwyn.
You have brought my daughter back to me, she says, and enfolds her in warmth.

--

When the Beast comes, he brings a hellish army made of wolves and men with brutish teeth, thugs, strange half-formed creatures from the night. The people rally around their beloved Queen and their new Princess, and the Queen names Gwyn commander of her forces. She takes it in stride, and for their part the soldiers do the same. They ride out behind her to face the nightmares in the daylight, screaming for their Queen, refusing to back down or turn away as she leads the charge.

She loses track of the battle quickly, the roar of blood and death loud in her ears. She is drenched in the stuff, matted fur stuck to her blade, and she misses the stroke that disarms her entirely. Her ears ring and her vision flickers as she looks up from the ground, her head spinning. The Beast looms over her, and it seems to her that she can see the animal in him, a ghostly façade over his handsome face. She turns, tries to crawl to her feet, but he snatches her braid and hauls her towards his blade. 

She screams, struggles and kicks, but to no avail. Her breath coming in screams, she closes her eyes and listens for the sound, the swish, the blade slicing through air. She follows it, moves with it, and suddenly the pull on her hair is gone. Her head slams forward into the ground.

He snarls at her and swings down again, but she rolls and blocks him with the steel of her gauntlet. Her hand burns with the blow, her wrist too weak to do anything but fall prone at her side. He laughs, loud and mirthless, and raises his sword above his head with both of his hands, the tip above her neck. She watches him, unable to move, her blood pounding in her ears.

His head flies with an arc of crimson light, a steady stream that looks nearly like a roll of scarlet silk that spatters across her, a spray that coats her skin. His body collapses to the ground beside her, sword clattering down, and she turns to look at her savior. Dalia stands above her, chest heaving with panting breath, tears and blood mingling on her cheeks, her long sword bright silver and red. He was mine to kill, she pants, half-sobbing, and you are mine to protect as I am yours.

She reaches out a hand towards Dalia, and feels their fingers slide together before the world goes very bright and then fades to black, a tunnel that encompasses her as the sounds all fade away.

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After the battle, the army moves back to the castle, exhausted but triumphant. The Queen in her throne room breathes a sigh of relief and moves to embrace her daughter, covered in blood and the dust of the battlefield, and then to Gwyn, who is drenched in the wreckage of war. Mother, says Dalia, I love her.

I know, says the Queen. She smiles. I’ve commissioned another crown.

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Gwyn and Dalia are crowned the day of their wedding. They kneel before the Queen, fingers twined together as the crowns are placed gently on their heads, the weight pressing down on their curls. Together they stand and face the cheering audience, lifting their joined hands.

Long live the Queens! the crowd cheers.

And they live long—and busily—and eventfully—and perhaps even happily ever after.

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